Lips of her shadow ....

There I was concealing myself in a dark room which wasn't perfectly dark. My eyes were staring at the light leaking inside along the edges of the door from the outside world. The light wasn't reaching me at its maximum speed because the photons were loaded with zillions of heavy thoughts ( nerdy humor), they were on my mind through my eyes....

The profoundness of the thoughts goes uncontrollable sometimes, specially when you are waiting for someone so desperately. I turned my head and preferred to face the darker side. In situation like these most of us choose to close our eyes but some of us (like me) try to distill strange figures from the darkness. During these unconscious process one can actually see things in dark and it gets difficult to figure out the difference between real and imaginary.

Out of the darkness she appeared. I don't know how to admire her beauty. If I ask my eyes to explain..... they refuse. I think to see some one's beauty the role of light isn't that important. All you need is a real sense of the way you should see the beauty & trust me she was looking so amazingly amazing. I was scared and so she was. Her figure in the dark was approaching me. In seconds i stood up and grabbed her in my arms. Both of us were so scared that we could feel each other's heart beats which were in sync too ......

I hugged her tighter and we stood still for seconds to feel the thrill and excitement... something real worth ... Her body was warmer than mine and breathing was heavy. The best way to see someone so close is to feel her breath. I closed my eyes and I could feel the warm exhaled blow on my neck. I could feel the warmth of the sunshine over my skin. Now the beats were slower and we knew it was the time which we were waiting for. My fingers pushed that beautiful layer of hair from her face behind her ear and gently held her neck with one hand and waist from the other. I could feel her warm fingers on my chest. Faces came so close that I could feel her breaths right below my nose. My mind went numb and lips went dry....... and then we KISSED. Her lips we so soft that I could feel the warm blood flowing in them. Lips were wet and the kiss was amazingly smooth...few seconds there...This kiss the very first autograph of our love........

When i will switch off the lights and the world will get colder she will come again to give me her warmth and her love will be imprinted on my lips...... she promised ....... :)

Living life in one night .

There comes a time when you need to choose between right and wrong. I think the truth of the matter is that you always know the right thing to do.The hard part is doing it. It doesn't matter if i'll get the same memorable moments again because all that matters is that i got some.

I reached the hardest part ..... I was scared but then i knew i had to ..... so i held my breath, zero guts. my heart beat raised and i was thirsty.

Her hand was empty, (the one without the ring) & there I was lying right next to her. her palm was open just for me. I used to dream about such a moment with her and when it came partially true I was scared but I was in right state of mind.This was the first time when I was so close to her,I could smell her fragrance. I knew that the moment may not return. The time was running as fast as it could but for me it froze. I could feel the gravity of the situation.(I could practically see the Einstein's theory of general relativity which says time goes slower in higher gravitational fields.I hate my nerdy humor )..

Anyways I wanted to reach that palm as fast as i could but then a thought stopped me. My very own thought talked to me.It asked me "what i am about to do is right?What about people who love me? Am i ready to take my life to the next level? what about traditions ? On what grounds ? is she the right one? ...

questions were tough ... each one of them ... but it was time to take a stand ..."now or never.I gave it a fight that night.

My love for something or someone is very genuine and honest. I always had that thirst for someone who is matured,confident,successful,lovable,honest & extremely cute! :).I never hesitated to go against the winds of traditions because I believe in a new beginning of everything or anything. Someone has to take stand and it doesn't really matters where you start, all that matters is that the consequences should be controlled.The intense feeling hidden somewhere deep was going out of control & I was helpless.

That night in the silent clashes of zillion thoughts all that I could hear was .."she is the one! she is the one i was waiting for from so long ".I wanted to make her life more beautiful than she had ever imagined. I wanted to be with her forever.

I followed my heart... I slowly pushed my hand towards her hands and then within fractions of second I held it. I held it with softness and love like i never going to leave it. Her amazing eyes were closed & she chose not to respond.I think she was scared too or maybe she didn't want to give some wrong signals to me which was very genuine and wise of her at that very moment.

But there is one thing she needs to know that I will not give up.

For next few hours I was just staring at her hand and her face. My first experience with thoughtlessness.

She brought peace to my mind ..